Amplified Stories: Let's Live in the Solution

AMPLIFIED STORIES is a platform created by KCSARC in order to amplify the voices of survivors of sexual violence. Shared experiences hold the power to validate, heal, and change. The post below was submitted by a survivor who gave KCSARC permission to share their story.

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My name is Levana and my pain is real...
So you do not tell me how to think and to feel,
They say, just think small and focus on self
Don't worry about how to help someone else.
Just think about you, and your family too...
Forget the rest... You have no control of others’ actions
They do what they do... just focus on you...

Well I think that’s lame, they are the ones to blame...
If the victim was adult, then it would be an assault...
But because the victim is a child, the terminology is very mild,
Molestation works best, and that is very hard to test...

And many victims go to rest, knowing that they
DID THEIR BEST... to but the perpetrator behind bars... to protect others from these scars...
But the victims must rest on, and wait upon another dawn...
Because their cases linger on, and on, and on...
It could go on for quite some time... This makes no sense...
IT IS A VICIOUS CRIME!

Why do criminals walk the streets,
while cases go untouched for weeks?
Because of the sheer volume,
of perpetrators with this problem.
They say it may take a month,
Before they even look at ours because there are 23 KIDS LIKE MINE AND THE ONE DETECTIVE HAS NO TIME.

THERE ARE OTHERS JUST LIKE US.
Who want a resolution to this stuff...
And the more victims that survive, speak up, and stay alive
The more we see these violent crimes...
Because the perpetrators free and they WILL DO IT AGAIN, MOST DEFINITELY...
Just next time they will be more careful,
More threatening, more intense, because they just escaped the fence
That had them backed against the wall... oh guess what, they say, I DIDN'T FALL...

They go on to take a wife. Hold their kid up with a knife... and no one talks, no one’s aware...
Because THEY TOLD ME not to care what happens to him over there...
Well FUCK YOU ALL... this one’s on me...
I VERY STRONGLY DISAGREE!

It is my place... to protect another from the terror of my brother.
I will not sit back and say, “He will not do it again that way...”
I do not believe that much is true... But you tell me that’s up to YOU?
Why would you care... you do not stare at the pain that’s always inside...
And so you can hide in the solace of knowing... You did everything you could and now it is showing.
You feel rewarded and good deep inside when you tell me to go back to sleep and to hide.

From reality and the voices of victims... to overt my eyes and forget about change...
There is nothing to do. That’s is deranged!
I want to take back the power... and say that it is wrong...
I will not sit back and just play along...
I WANT SOCIAL CHANGE... THE CHILDREN NEED JUSTICE...

You would all agree... You all know this...
But don’t just stare... and say you care...
BE AWARE... these people scare! They should be taken off the street...
And given something gross to eat...
And tell them that it's very wrong... to bring this harm upon a child...
More should be done... this is so wild...

It is the most repeated crime... yet not enough are doing time!
It is only 3% spend that time paying for their crime
When I called about DV... the police came... they believed me...
They took away the perpetrator they made sure I was safe...
But when I told them about the way my daughter’s life was stolen that day,
All they told me was to wait... and wait and wait...
And it’s okay to hate... BUT do not dare humiliate!
The perpetrator is now the victim... what is wrong with this system?

Why do we all protect the morally inept? Because it is 1 in 20 men...
Yes, that’s right I will say it again 1 and 20 bring this pain...
THAT IS INSANE! That means that, your brother... uncle... neighbor... cousin... friend... or husband
Could be the one that does this stuff... And if that is not enough...
Think about the little children... who have to hide these things from you
Because they feel responsible too...

You can tell them what you feel, that this feeling isn’t real, that they are not the ones to blame...
That they have no shame in that game...
They do not know the way it works... and so they are left feeling hurt
Kids live for validation and affection... and it’s confusing... they know the questions
But they do not ask or say out loud... because adults are like a cloud....
Don't blame yourself, you have done nothing wrong... Just go on living your song...
Forget that he is free... with someone else on his knee...
Rubbing and petting and now they are bed wetting...
They feel just like you... responsible too... so he moves right along
And nothing is done...

I demand more action be taken...
Protect our youth... Protect our nation
Forget about taking vacations...
Think about changing the way we all say
We know you will be better someday
Let’s be better now... Let’s stop it somehow...
And fight for the rights of children united...
Make the perpetrator pay... Don't let him see the light of day...
Only then will all this go away... 

Let them take the blame today! Not tomorrow or in two years, just as soon as you hear this...
He hurt me in my private part... that’s enough... For anyone... To be taken from the sun,
And put into a dark jail cell, until trial... Their rights can go to hell...
Let’s treat this like we treat DV... Then you will really see
The difference will be complete
It will be a big defeat for all those power-hungry men...
Who like to do this stuff and then turn around and say we will not let them get away...

Sit back and wait, we will handle your case... Do not hurry this is no race!
Well I disagree... Do now you see me... I am in front of your face...
I will never get off your case...

Change it, or deal... Because I won’t let you steal the innocence of one more child...
You will hear from me... I WILL BE WILD!
I will not go away until you all say...
Let’s live in the solution and see resolution and change this great world today!

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